My city 2: The terrifying history Zhalovskoy, or the Spider
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– You cunning woman. In my opinion, is more cunning than me. You made so that I told you everything about what I think of, and I did not learn about you words. Do you ask whether all that now here happens to me is real? I will answer, no. This unreality in that concept as all of us got used to think …
Anabel killed it.
– And what it in your opinion?
– I think. – there began Natalia. – This certain reality between the worlds. I do not understand as? But we met.
– Met? – Anabel was surprised, asked. – we that? Are familiar?
– Perhaps. – Natalia assumed. – And perhaps is also not present.
Anabel asked explanations told by Natalia. She wanted to know whether Natalia understands what happens to it or not?
Natalia answered.
– How many I watch at you Anabel, I all am surprised to our similarity. – she told seeing that Anabel is similar to it as like as two peas. – I assume that a certain being of mine subconsciousness which controls me and does not allow to make mistakes. – then she emphasized. Fatal mistakes.
Anabel carefully took an interest.
– You are confident in it?
Natalia firmly and finally without povorotno said.
– On all hundred.
– Do you want to tell that you talk to yourself? – Anabel was surprised. – And I am not here? – Anabel surprised with such unexpected news exclaimed. – But I here! Here I, living person.
– No. – Natalia continued to claim. – You my subconsciousness. – then she added. – You it I. And I it you. – then she added. – You my mind, you are my thoughts, you my consciousness.
– But if so, then how you explain such fact that you talk to me?
– I do not talk to you. – Natalia told. – I talk to the thinking. – then she reminded. – Do you remember where we met?
– Certainly I remember.
– What did you then tell me? – Natalia made a pause, then reminded Anabel's words. – do not forget your purpose a task, councils of traitors do not forgive. – then she added. – I then did not understand from where you? I thought that you flew with me by that plane that landed at Charles De Gaulle's airport. I then thought that you not one. With you still someone is? I then thought that you me check. But I was mistaken. I understood that I you am unreal just now.
– From what did you solve it?
– Your questions. – Natalya began to be at suitable loss for words. – They? – Natalia made a pause, then continued. – Personal. – having made the next pause Natalia added. – Any intelligence agent will not ask private matters at once, here so bluntly. He at first will make to the woman something pleasant, will lull into a false sense of security, and then, in a conversation, so, between business, something will ask such?
– Truly. – Anabel agreed with Natalia. – The professional would act this way. But what if this not the pro? This person was sent to you that he took you and found out everything that it is necessary to him? Agree, it is simpler to nonprofessional to make it?
Natalia agreed.
– Perhaps you are also right. But whereas it is possible to explain that the chain of questions is built so what to answer them and it is necessary to lie?
Anabel explained.
– This psychology of the person.
– What do you mean?
– Person. – Anabel's beginnings. – In the majority of the nature, cannot lie. He can only tell some lie. But to lie he is incapable. Of course there are people who all the life lie, but this individuals. They sit in tops of the power. Having only lain, it is possible to achieve something. And then this lie turns into a way of life. Human lives, got used to luxury and not to refuse to themselves anything.
Natalia was terrified.
– But this madnesses!?
Anabel answered.
– Perhaps, but who knows that such madness? – in her words there was a shade confusion. She said about madness so that as though it was mad!? – agree, madness a concept relative? There are madmen geniuses, and there are madmen loonies, and just people subject to mad passion. Volition something that never happens in their life. They are called madmen too. But whether so it? Unless the dream is a madness? It is unlikely? To go to the dream all life and to die, thinking that it nevertheless will sometime be carried out. Let it was not carried out with you, but it it is possible to be carried out with your children or grandsons. Will you tell that it is not fine?
– What fine is that dying, the dream was not fulfilled? Dream, this only dream, and anything else. What use in a dream if it is impracticable? – then Natalia added. – The person living in a dream, is just the ghost, and nothing more.
– Do you consider that dreams will never come true?
– Looking what.
– For example?
– If the person dreams of something that to him never to see, in this case he is a full idiot. But if his dream perhaps is fulfilled, but for this purpose it is required efforts and time, then about what idiocy can there be a speech here? This person is rather a dreamer, than the idiot? In the ancient time, someone wanted to rise into the sky. Then these people were considered heretics, and idiots. Now they would be called dreamers. It is only dreams, to depart to other galaxy and to look how live there. Of course, we know something about it, but to see it with own eyes, agree Anabel, this absolutely other.
Anabel smiled.
– Let at first to Mars to land and will master it, and there we will look where still to direct their look.
– Do you know Anabel what will happen in the future?
– Do you consider that I it you? – told Anabel. – Means you know that I know, and I do not know the same yet.
– I understand you. – Natalia understood Anabel. She if did not know, then guessed what Anabel wants to tell about. It was it. Its the second I, so to speak. Was at Natalia's tip of the tongue anything. Any thoughts, except those that treated her, but not to them with Anabel to a conversation. Nobody knew from them that that will occur further. What decision will be made by Natalia. Nobody knows what decision the person will make. It is only possible to assume, but the person has to make the final decision. It can change the decision at the latest moment. Even without expecting that. This state is called unstable mentality. Though I call this state final the decision, analizations of this situation or the project. It is so easy to make the final decision when the decision demands the analysis. Final analysis. The decision which needs to be accepted otherwise. Fast thinking, and answer to the most important question? Whether there is this solution of these works that enclosed in it? And what the person will receive in exchange? – ours the decision can be changeable. Though you it I, I all the same do not know that will occur in the future. – Natalia made a pause, then added. – We can see only its part, what will occur on extremely measure this year. But all!? It is impossible to see. It is only possible to see what to you is allowed to see, and anything else.
Anabel asked.
– Do you know what will happen to you in the future? – then she was surprised. – Do not you try to change the destiny?
– No. – Natalia answered. – What for? There is no escaping fate. It is only possible to correct it and all.
Anabel was surprised.
– To correct? And you do not want to change it?
– Why. – Natalia answered. – I know the destiny. I saw it at the birth. Turn. – she heaved a deep sigh. – In it there is nothing good. Only one grief and disappointment. – then she added. – If the person was born in that time and not in that place, what to do? We are only small screws
– Everything is correct! – Anabel exclaimed. – All power this dictatorship! For you people everyone and everything was solved already for a long time. In this world is not present and there will be no justice. – then she added. – Accept my gift, rest.
Natalia took an interest.
– What do you mean? Rest.
– Calm and smooth surface. A pacification with by itself. Rest.
Natalia quietly asked.
– Death? – on her face the calm and serenity was visible. She guessed that all that happens to it, happens not to it, and to someone another. It could not happen to it. Rest. That there can be a beam Rest. Rest. Rest. Only in death it is possible to find rest. If the person stays idle all the life, then he is already dead. There are, of course, exceptional cases, but they are individual, and are connected with these or those diseases of the person. – This death?